So looking back, I wondered why we opted to take the Panaroma test. Yes, it gives us more peace of mind, but we did not such test for Caroline. Just the Nuchal Ultrasound. Yesterday I was starting to worry about the test so I called to see if the results were back yet. Nope.
Today I was sitting in a meeting and my phone rang. I grabbed it and ran out the door. I was ready to hear that everything looks great. But then I heard something I was not prepared to deal with. I had prepared for the chance that this one would have a chromosome defect. Statistically, its possible. But that is not what the nurse said either. She said the results were “inconclusive”. What the hell does that mean?? She went on to say that there was not enough fetal DNA in my blood to give a result. Well, again, “what does that mean?”
She offered to make me an appointment with their genetic specialist. I went ahead and took the appointment.
Upon returning to my meeting all I could think is, “Does lack of DNA mean the baby the baby is not developing correctly? Is this worst than if baby were to have Downs Syndrome?”
I spent the rest of the day googling as much as I could when I had a few minutes to spare. I was clearly distraught. My co-worker, Eric, knew something was wrong. I talked to him about it. I needed to just vent. I knew he did not have answers. However, he offered me something else….to talk to his dad. His dad is an OB that specializes in high risk pregnancies. I wasn’t sure. I felt weird taking favors. Besides, I should be calling my OB or my specialist. This is what I pay them for.
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